Holy Week

It's been some time since I have posted anything here. My apologies for abandoning my creativity, but sometimes life gets in the way. To be honest I just havent been that inspired lately.

The title. This week is Holy Week. A great week for religion everywhere. Holy Week for me however has a newer meaning. This week has been rough for me as this time last year was the beginning of the end for my Grandmother. We werent very close, I will not begin to pretend we were, but as Ive mentioned before, I wish we had been, and it wasnt until it was too late that I realized we should have been.

Good Friday was the last time I saw her alive. Good Friday she kissed my babies and said goodbye and it was hard to let go. Extremely hard to let go. So this Holy Week has been rough for me because I find myself remembering a lot that I would like to forget, and wishing I could hold onto the good things I do remember, the childhood things I remember about her, and the nice conversations we had as Adults, all the big stuff, the good things that make life wonderful. Funny how hot dog stands will never look the same, she loved hot dogs. I also can't watch scooby doo without thinking of you Gram. I do hope you're enjoying your first year home.

Life is funny isnt it? We spend all our time as kids wishing to be big, and as adults wishing to be kids again. Oh to be a kid again and not have to worry about menu plans and pleasing everyone. I long for the care free days sometimes, the days where I didnt need to worry about who's going where and when, and who's coming to dinner. it would be nice to for once have a holiday where everyone can be together and just be together in one place without worry of who's feelings are hurt in the planning process, or feeling as if I need to explain why I choose to do the things I do.

I've had an incredible year, My girls are amazing, beautiful, intelligent and creative. I have a wonderful husband, a fantastic family, two dads! my life is crazy, it is busy, it is fun, and it is mine. full of laughter, smiles and good stuff.

Life is good, Hold onto it, cherish it. live every moment in love, remember to laugh and don't sweat the small stuff because it leads to cause for regret. Regret... such an ugly word